Oh and, this post would be a wordy one. So if you don't have the time, don't bother reading because like I've said, it WILL be wordy.
Wong Fung siol
Plastic bottles
Black tea macchiato
Donated cents ahahahaha
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My 2nd best friend ♥
Unexpected shopping
Dream markers HAHAHA
New twitter background picture :-)
Took MRT with XY. Chatted with her and wild thoughts went wild in my mind. It was really weird. Like, "What would happen if I/you died?" The thought of it was just saddening. Then, I thought, "Who would be the first/second/third/fourth person whom I would call if I knew I was going to die soon?" And I really couldn't imagine the day someone, whom is super close to me, dies (TOUCHWOOD). I was at the brink of tears, thinking so negatively. I felt that I needed to cherish some people - These people, my loves, before it's too late. I've got so much to say. But they can't be put into words. But I shall make short dedications to them (at the end of this post), to 5 of the most important people in my life. I wrote an essay last year (when I was in Secondary 2) entitled "That touch of Love". It was about my life. I read it out to my whole class, and most shockingly, I cried while reading the last part. It was so unexpected of me. Here's part of the essay:
"It's safe to say that one of the greatest feelings in the world comes from the warmth of being unconditionally loved. Regardless of the love from your spouse or partner, or the connection you share with your mother or father, or even the loving bond between your siblings and friends.
I'm extremely grateful for all the love that I've had in my young life. But the truth is, there are many parts of the world where unconditional love is lacking. With wars taking place each and every day, messy political battles, starvation and greed. Because even in the darkest of alleys, remains the fact that we, as humans, are meant to be loved.
Ever since I can remember, my mother had been nothing but honest with me, concerning adoption. For this reason, I have been comfortably open talking about adoption. My mother's honesty and candor regarding adoption has caused me to admire her, greatly, I realized that not all children were as lucky as I was. I have heard stories of adoptive parents who have hid the fact from their children that they were adopted. This saddens me deeply. Being adopted is nothing to be ashamed of. I am really appreciative of the fact that my mother is so open with me, telling me that I was being adopted. I am truly grateful for how my life has turned out thus far.
I've always found it funny, how when a person I know discovers that I am indeed adopted, they are always afraid to ask questions. Now, I know they are just trying to be respectful, but I have nothing to hide.
During my school life, I have made many friends. There is a saying, "A friend is like a heart, you cannot survive without it". I really agree with that. Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born. My friends illustrated my life's story, and filled it with colours with all the bits and pieces of memories that they had shared with me.
Many events have taken place during the course of my life. There were ups and downs. My present family and friends stood by me and gave me words of encouragement. They were the people who gave me moral support. They were the ones who made me who I am till today. I'm glad that I have them in my life.
Every day, I thank God for how things have turned out in my life. It is amazing how our lives are a mere result of cause and effect. If one small piece of my past was altered, it would change my world today. I respect my adoptive mother for bringing me up. She plays the most important role in my life. I could confide all my secrets to her. She is the one who gives me confidence. Sometimes, she would scold me, or worse still, hit me. But I count them as a pure act of love. I know whatever she does is for my own good and I appreciate it a lot.
To say that she was successful in providing me with a good life would be an understatement. She provided me with the best life a kid could ever ask for. Without her and her guidance and knowledge, I wouldn't be who I am today. This is all part of God's plan and I wouldn't have it any other way."
This essay was a homework which was given by Mdm Kaur, my Literature teacher then (I have no idea what the essay had gotta do with Lit LOL). Mdm Kaur asked the class to write/type something about our life. So, I did it. And now, dedications...
To my dearest Mother:
I know that being a Mum is the hardest job in the world. But, you have done it well. You've been the greatest Mother to me, teaching me many things that others never see. Now, I begin to cherish you. I was willful then. I grab every opportunity I have now to hug you or say "I love you".
Thank you for tolerating every little single tantrum that I throw.
Thank you for adding that touch of love into my life and for bringing me up.
Thank you for always being there.
Thank you for making me feel loved and showing me that the best gifts cannot be bought.
Thank you for showing me that you're not perfect and even the best makes mistakes.
Thank you for teaching me that happiness is a choice.
Thank you for everything.
我愛您。
To my cutest Grandmother:
I can still remember the time when you used to "play Catching" with us around the house. When the mischievous us made mistakes, we would run away, and you would come chasing after us, trying to hit us. And at the end of the day, you would be so nice to forgive our wrongdoings. I missed those times. But they would never happen again.
Somebody once told me, "When an old person scolds you, it means that he/she is in the pink of health!" I'm just so glad that you're still nagging at me, asking me to do my homework. Although sometimes I might get pissed off, I still hope that you remain the same old naggy you.
You have been taking care of me since I was young. Thank you. If I only had one wish, I would wish for longer lives for you and Mummy.
I love you, naggy Ahma.
To my best friend Xinyue:
"Once in a lifetime, means there's no second chance." - High School Musical 2
I knew you since Secondary 1. People thought that we were sisters because we looked alike. We used to hang out together for recess. And suddenly, I drifted away. Why? How stupid I was huh? But now, we're back together and that's all that matters. You were the one who stood by me during the darkest period of my life... And that time, was one of the worst times that I'd cried for. Your worried look when you saw my teary face, indescribable.
To me, you're not only my best friend, but also, my sister. I thank God for allowing our fates to happen. I admire you for the values you've instilled in me. Because of you, I've grown to become a stronger person.
I treasure you a lot as a sister, and I would never want to lose you. If you need me, I'm just a text/call/seat away.
Thank you for everything and I love you.
To my cousin Xinzi:
Since young, we've been playing and studying together. We went to the same Kindergarten, same Primary school and now, we're in the same Secondary school. I guess you don't pretty much like it, no?
I know that I've been really mean to you when we were young, bossing you around and things like that. Man, I was such a bitch. I'm sorry for the things that I'd done to you back then... And those games we played when we were young, I totally had no idea that you didn't like playing them. If time could be rewinded, I would ask you what you wanted to do instead...
Now, we both have grown. These 15 years had been a roller coaster ride. You have become much more........ I don't know what to say. Just want to tell you that you really have to cherish your mother, because it's now or never.
You have a lot of friends whom you've got to know from online. And I guess you treat friends better than family. You only see how nice your friends are and how your family scolds you. But have you ever thought that if you were to be in trouble, only your family will be there for you? Only those very few friends would be there for you.
I don't know if you would be reading this post. But if you were to read this, you might be thinking, "Fk, my cousin is a lame bitch." I don't know...
Sometimes, you're really so rude that I can't stand you. But I still hate love you as my cousin. A few times I'd asked you if you like me as your cousin and your reply was "No, I don't like you." Wow man, I really have nothing to say.
Anyway, thanks for the awesome childhood which you'd given me. I'll always be here when you need me. Love you.
To my curvey Shannon:
It all started from a pad. Yes, a pad. HAHA. The way we began to know each other was just hilarious if we were to think back right now. We have such an awesome fate. I mean, which senior and junior can get along so well with each other? We have this mutual understanding although you're younger than me by a year. We often have heart2heart talks with each other. Although you were not able to give me the best advices, you provided me the best listening ear. Thank you, Shannon.
We came up with the name "curvey" because Nicholas teased us that we weren't straight. Well, cool name, no?
It has been a year. You were afraid that the reason why we're able to get along so well was because this was only the beginning. In fact, I was too, afraid like you. You have plenty of friends and often busy with PSL stuff. I fear that one day I would be replaced by another person. I must be over thinking. But well, it was the normal teenage drama that all of us were used to - People getting new friends, and replacing the old ones...
I'm just delighted that I have you right now. And I'm always here for you, babe. I say it and I mean it. Like how I was there for you when you needed a shoulder. You cried badly that day, which kind of freaked me out to tears as well.
Oh and the day at the City Hall MRT station was just great. I'd learnt so much stuff. I bet you did too. "Catching myself when I fall, my way of life."
Truck loads of love to you, my dear.
Somebody once told me, "When an old person scolds you, it means that he/she is in the pink of health!" I'm just so glad that you're still nagging at me, asking me to do my homework. Although sometimes I might get pissed off, I still hope that you remain the same old naggy you.
You have been taking care of me since I was young. Thank you. If I only had one wish, I would wish for longer lives for you and Mummy.
I love you, naggy Ahma.
To my best friend Xinyue:
"Once in a lifetime, means there's no second chance." - High School Musical 2
I knew you since Secondary 1. People thought that we were sisters because we looked alike. We used to hang out together for recess. And suddenly, I drifted away. Why? How stupid I was huh? But now, we're back together and that's all that matters. You were the one who stood by me during the darkest period of my life... And that time, was one of the worst times that I'd cried for. Your worried look when you saw my teary face, indescribable.
To me, you're not only my best friend, but also, my sister. I thank God for allowing our fates to happen. I admire you for the values you've instilled in me. Because of you, I've grown to become a stronger person.
I treasure you a lot as a sister, and I would never want to lose you. If you need me, I'm just a text/call/seat away.
Thank you for everything and I love you.
To my cousin Xinzi:
Since young, we've been playing and studying together. We went to the same Kindergarten, same Primary school and now, we're in the same Secondary school. I guess you don't pretty much like it, no?
I know that I've been really mean to you when we were young, bossing you around and things like that. Man, I was such a bitch. I'm sorry for the things that I'd done to you back then... And those games we played when we were young, I totally had no idea that you didn't like playing them. If time could be rewinded, I would ask you what you wanted to do instead...
Now, we both have grown. These 15 years had been a roller coaster ride. You have become much more........ I don't know what to say. Just want to tell you that you really have to cherish your mother, because it's now or never.
You have a lot of friends whom you've got to know from online. And I guess you treat friends better than family. You only see how nice your friends are and how your family scolds you. But have you ever thought that if you were to be in trouble, only your family will be there for you? Only those very few friends would be there for you.
I don't know if you would be reading this post. But if you were to read this, you might be thinking, "Fk, my cousin is a lame bitch." I don't know...
Sometimes, you're really so rude that I can't stand you. But I still hate love you as my cousin. A few times I'd asked you if you like me as your cousin and your reply was "No, I don't like you." Wow man, I really have nothing to say.
Anyway, thanks for the awesome childhood which you'd given me. I'll always be here when you need me. Love you.
To my curvey Shannon:
It all started from a pad. Yes, a pad. HAHA. The way we began to know each other was just hilarious if we were to think back right now. We have such an awesome fate. I mean, which senior and junior can get along so well with each other? We have this mutual understanding although you're younger than me by a year. We often have heart2heart talks with each other. Although you were not able to give me the best advices, you provided me the best listening ear. Thank you, Shannon.
We came up with the name "curvey" because Nicholas teased us that we weren't straight. Well, cool name, no?
It has been a year. You were afraid that the reason why we're able to get along so well was because this was only the beginning. In fact, I was too, afraid like you. You have plenty of friends and often busy with PSL stuff. I fear that one day I would be replaced by another person. I must be over thinking. But well, it was the normal teenage drama that all of us were used to - People getting new friends, and replacing the old ones...
I'm just delighted that I have you right now. And I'm always here for you, babe. I say it and I mean it. Like how I was there for you when you needed a shoulder. You cried badly that day, which kind of freaked me out to tears as well.
Oh and the day at the City Hall MRT station was just great. I'd learnt so much stuff. I bet you did too. "Catching myself when I fall, my way of life."
Truck loads of love to you, my dear.
Gosh, I sound as if I'm going to die soon. HAHA. I spent more than 4 hours on this post. But I just felt that I needed to express my feelings. Actually, there was another group of people whom I wanted to thank. But, I just didn't know what to say. I can't just simply type a "Thank you" and "End of dedication", right? I don't know. Maybe now is not the time yet. But if not now, then when? I don't know.
“好的事情最後雖然結束
感動十分就有十分滿足
謝謝你，是你陪我走過那些路”
－好的事情，嚴爵